Just a fun story based on a true experience to lighten up the concept of our shadow aspect...
This is the story of Shadow and how we truly met for the first time... I always used to fight with Shadow, chase her away, I hated her. Always causing trouble, always. I known her for a very long time, well I thought I did. Now I realize all I knew was that Shadow existed, but I was determined to keep her locked away in the dark. That’s where shadow liked to hang out anyway, hiding in the dark. Shame kept her there and she kept herself alive by feeding on fear and low frequency energies. Most of the time she would just be hiding in the dark silently, but sometimes she would get all upset and active and start to invade my space, so much so that I thought that Shadow was me, or I was Shadow. She needed to leave, for good! I tried to tell her this lots of times, but she wouldn't listen, she only got more angry.
Suddenly one day I noticed what made Shadow more angry each time, was when I told her "Don't think like that Shadow. Don't do this. Stop that." When I told Shadow to stop, go away or be quiet, or be something else, she would be outraged. So one day, without really thinking about it, I heard myself say, "I'm sorry Shadow. I hear you. Talk to me."
The most amazing thing happened... Shadow stopped right in the middle of her outrageous tantrum and just looked at me. “What? You want to listen?” I said, “Yes. Just talk to me. Tell me everything.”
Shadow took one step closer, a bit skeptical, very carefully, and said, “ok...”, and she began to talk. She told me about all her fears and pains and worries and concerns, and I just listened. I just said, “I hear you, thank you for telling me.”
Shadow moved closer, and so moving more and more out of the dark, just enough so that I could see her more clearly... and I gasped... because I recognized her! She looked just like me! Only she looked younger, she had short hair, and there was one time in my life I had short hair and I was about 12 or 13 years old. She looked awful though, like a starving, wounded war child, or something from a horror movie. This was the first time I truly met Shadow, and I realized immediately that this was an aspect of my own self that I had cut off, like splitting off a part of my soul because at some point I decided this part was not worthy of love. It was clear what happens when something is cut off from the flow of Love... this. This shadow aspect was just an aspect that had been banned into the shadows, into darkness, to never be seen or loved again.
Realizing that this was an aspect of myself I had cut off, I invited her to come closer, come sit with me, allow me to love you now. Shadow came a few steps closer and then suddenly threw herself back into the darkness, “No! she cried out. I don't trust you. you are just trying to get rid of me. You just want to conquer me, so you can win. Then you can tell the world how you defeated me, just so that you can be a hero. I won't let you use me like that!”
I said, “No Shadow, I won't do that. I don't want to get rid of you. I actually want you to come Home. Come Home to me. You are a part of me, and you will make my soul complete again. I just separated you from me, because I believed that Love was something that came from outside of me, and I thought that you were not worthy of that love. Now I know that I am the one that Loves, and I choose to love you. So I won't tell the world of how I conquered you... you can tell the story some day ok? You can share yourself of how you opened up to love and made a choice to live in the light and come Home.” Shadow liked that idea, and decided that maybe it was possible that we could grow closer towards each other, get to know each other better, and see how things went from there.
One day Shadow was at it again, in a mood of worries and complaining she was not doing things good enough. My first reaction was to shut her up, I said, “Stop it! Stop thinking like that!” Shadow snapped back at me, annoyed. I said, “Oh sorry Shadow, I did it again. I'm sorry. I hear you. Talk to me.”
Shadow began to talk, but then after two sentences she burst out laughing and said, “No it's ok. It's all a lie any way. I don't believe these lies anymore. I'm ready to shift into a higher frequency now. I want you to actually feed me with more high frequency. I don’t only mean high vibrational things to eat and drink, but also in thoughts, words and actions. Please help me.”
I actually noticed Shadow was already looking a lot better. Looking more healed, and coming out of the darkness more often. Like a best friend who would come lay on the bed with hands behind her head and legs crossed over each other, casually telling stories of old painful experiences, and how that separated us more and more from each other. We could laugh about the funny things she began to believe about herself. In fact it became clear that Shadow had somehow split herself off from me, because she was the one that stated to believe the lies and decided to live in the dark. We realized that in truth, I (The I that is pure Divine Love) would never have rejected a part of my own soul. There must be another part, between Shadow and me, the part that is judging what is right and wrong, good and bad, is worthy or unworthy of love, because LOVE does not judge and condemn anything right?
What part was then deciding what could be called light and shadow, what should be seen and hidden, what should be kept separate, or allowed to remain part of the whole? How can there be a whole, or oneness, when there are any parts at all that are excluded? Oneness would simply never be complete if there was even one part missing.
Shadow and I were talking about it and wondered… what if there was already something present that activated this belief of being separate from Love, like an installed program or encoding that caused all this in the first place? What if distorted programs of guilt, shame and fear was unknowingly installed all this time, with the purpose of always keeping parts of us separate, ( even if it would be one tiny part) in the dark, feeding off low frequencies and energetic entanglements, all creating the illusion that Love is somewhere out there and we need to earn it to deserve it, and need to fix, change and improve ourselves to become whole?
We decided we don’t like this game, and we don’t want to play it anymore. We know the truth of who we really are, so why keep falling into these traps and listening to the lies. Next time the lies start to talk we are not going to listen, we will just start singing as loudly as we can. It will be a song that reminds us that, “I Am Love, I Am Free, I Am this unique authentic expression of the Infinite pure Divine Source right here right now.” We will sing and dance to this song, until that old programming looses all of its power and we reclaim all of our power back. The power to choose, to choose LOVE, again and again… and So It Is.
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